today...

sooo today was totally stressful and crappy... i had the appeal with the student conduct board and was so nervous i almost puked. they asked me a bunch of bullshit questions which i answered but i guess they didn't like what i had to say and they decided to keep john browns decision and keep me out of the dorms. im really pissed about this but there is kinda a silver lining of sorts. since i wont be living on campus i had to find another place to stay and lucky me i did. about 5 miles away from campus is a hotel type thing with furnished rooms that does long term rents. its a little cheaper in the long run and a bonus is i get to have my car there! so that's the plan for now if everything goes well thats whats gonna happen.

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So the new year is here and i didn't make any resolutions, the less i make the less i break is the way i look at it. but the sad thing it that i was expecting to feel like something, anything at all, had changed and i don't feel like anything did. Maybe it never will, or maybe it will all change tomorrow?

letter to save me (maybe)

Student Conduct Board,

I would like to appeal the decision made by John Brown,Dean of Students, concerning my on-campus residence status. I am being wrongly over-prosecuted for a simple alcohol violation. Stated in the student handbook, the maximum punishment for a first alcohol offense is a
fine and probation.- Removal from housing does not happen until second or repeated offense. In speaking with Mr. Brown, he mentioned to me a separate situation regarding medications.
The situation with the medication is different. I am referring to the situation in which I forgot to pick up my medications one day- and the reason for that was one in which I was in between prescriptions and didn't have my new meds yet. This separate incident should not be held against me when considering my punishment for the alcohol violation.

Regarding the alcohol in my room, I would like to explain what happened in my own
words. A couple of days before the incident a friend of mine came to me with a
problem. She was having some trouble with her roommate and needed a place
to keep an opened bottle of alcohol. So in trying to help her out I said yes
but only for a couple of days. At this point my roommate and I were getting along
fine so I assumed she would be fine with the whole situation. I didn't say
anything to her about the alcohol and a couple days had passed by before she
found the alcohol herself. She didn't say anything to me so again I assumed
everything was cool. The next evening though, a Thursday, before even talking
to me she turned me into the r.a. for having alcohol. After that security
confiscated the alcohol and here I am now. The punishment that I accepted at
the hearing with Paul Kinbsbury included the max.$500 dollar fine, a semester of
probation, and two alcohol related courses. This I believe is a reasonable
punishment for the violation I committed.

On that note I believe that further punishment, or revoking my
housing, would be unfair and unjust. By doing so it would mean that I am being
held to a higher double standard than other students. I am fully capable of being
responsible for myself as I have been through the first semester of school. At this age
young adults are almost programed to make mistakes and get into some trouble,
but not all mistakes are for the worse, many times they help a person grow and
learn from their mistakes. I have learned plenty from my mistakes and have
grown from them. As for the alcohol, it just ends with trouble, even if it's not yours.

In conclusion, I would like to again apologize for my actions
and everything that led up to this situation. I understand that my decisions were
irresponsible but I have learned my lesson. All I want now is the
chance to return to school, live on campus, and prove that I deserve to be there.
I ask that instead of looking at my one incident of irresponsible behavior you look
at my semester of mature responsible behavior that shows who I really
am. If given the chance, I want you know that my actions and decisions will show
the maturity that I have gained throughout this experience, and know something
like this will not happen again. Thank you again for your time and I look forward to
speaking with the board in person some time in the near future.

survey

Basics

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Full name: Alexis Kate Laughman
Birthdate: January 18, 1990
Where were you born? Houston Tx
Where were you conceived? in a bed i think
What state would you like to live in? its a tie between california and texas
Do you want to have children? ha ha when hell freezes over
Religion: nope religion cant handle me

Love Life
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Are you a virgin? umm... yup
Have you ever been in love? im not really sure what love is but i guess so
Are you in love now? .... i might be
Do you have a boyfriend? i never will have a" man
If so, Is he romantic? n/a
Have you ever danced with him? n/a
Have you ever had your heart broken? oh yes more that once
Have you ever broken any one else's heart? i would hope not

Favorites
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Color(s) : green black blue and orange sometimes
Boys Name: Edward
Girls Name: Annie Arin Taylor
Color eyes: Green
Flowers: Orchids Tulips Roses

This or That
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Pepsi or Coke? Coke
Bacardi or Captain Morgan? Captain
Desktop or Laptop? Laptop
Sweet corn or Cream corn? sweet
Turkey Hill iced tea or Lipton iced tea? if its white Lipton
Book or Movie? duh... book
Music or Tv? music