update

hello again my non existent readers, life has been crazy since my last chapter. And you know what that means.... yes..... it is possible......more drama. i think drama is just drawn to me. a couple weeks ago a couple friends and I were bored crazy and had the not so brilliant idea to try and find a place to drink. as it turns out we were not so great at that. so i had the brilliant idea to bring something back after thanksgiving break for a little after finals partayyy... again not a great idea but whateves. a week goes by and my roommate doesn't say a word then one night i decided to have just a little drink and she had a shit fit going on about where did i get it and all of this kinda stuff. after a minute though she calmed down and i left. the next night the same thing happened and this time without even saying anything to me she turned me into the ra annie. so now I'm in a whole shit load of trouble without a shovel to dig myself out. first i was given a 500 dollar fine, put on probation, mandated to alcohol awareness classes, and an online assignment about alcohol. but no that's not nearly all my friends... no no no... i was also kicked out of student housing thanks to that lovely contract i signed a few short weeks ago. and the icing on the cake is that I've failed not one but two of my "bullshit" 1 credit classes which lowered my gpa to a bad place. meaning I've lost my scholarship possibly. which also means that i might not be able to continue at delval due to not having enough money to cover tuition. oh but wait now that I think about it there are sprinkles on this cake i call life, and they're called mom. telling my mother all of this is going to be like torture. she will never let me forget this, how i fucked everything up and ruined my life according to her. maybe this isn't the end though, maybe this is only the beginning of something better. ha like that would ever happen, my life as i know it is over. after thinking about all of this I've come to one conclusion..... the problem is me. in every problem that i face the only negative component in me. solution... remove me from the equation, in other words don't be me be someone else. maybe if I'm someone else my bad luck will skip over me and ill land in some good news for a change. I'm open to advice at this point cause obviously everything I've tried has failed as of now so if you have read this and feel like leaving you two sense please do so. all comments are welcome, don't be shy now...