My poems...

As i sit here thinking of the day,
Of the fateful day I will get to say,
"I'm leaving now, gone away from this place"
and no thoughts of here would cloud my place.

If only they knew, If only they cared,
the pain inside they wouldn't have dared,
to let me be, to let me stay free.
But know I'm in here, behind locked door,
My way to deal had been so poor,
I feel like I'm dying,
Cant help from the crying
I'm loosing myself, confined to the shelf
the broken pieces of my heart,
afraid that I have lost the part,
that holds my love and helped me be loved.
I know that I now hold the card
Why must these choices be so hard
Am I chosen pick,
of the worlds cruelst pick.


From behind my shield of pain,
I long again to feel the rain.
To the world it hids my crying,
And the fact I'm slowly dying.

My anger and frustration show,
To hide the emotions deep below.
Shame and fear beside it hide,
A secret, not known to the world outside.
They are mine alone to bear,
If let out they will no dout scare,
The ones I love, they wont believe,
The pain that lies inside of me.

I'm leaving now, gone away from this place.
The world my life I can no longer face.
The reason why is hard to say
I've failed at life, I chouldn't stay.
When I am gone I want you to know,
You must move on, you have to let go.
I felt like this was my last and only choice,
Remember my face....remember my voice.
There's no one to blame, the fault is my own,
I was confused and afraid, I felt all alone.
The people I loved I know they card,

this one is now quite done a finished version is soon to come!